As I sit down here
Looking deep into my life
I just can say – waw
This life is a blessing

We can live this life
As a shade for those
Who need us, that when we are gone
We leave behind a trail, that no one else can fulfill.

Ever..

–Sijith

My life started seeing a face.
And that face was yours
There is nothing bigger to me than you,
You are the shell that hold my life..

Your love for me is bigger than anything,
You are the sunshine that keeps my life.
Please give me a hug,
For I don’t have anyone than you..

–
Sijith

“Something that you feel in your heart,
you know when you have it
What is happiness, I dont know
Though I feel it right now – this moment

I wish I could get the right words,
to tell you how I feel
A feeling within me,
A calmness, a sense of happiness,

What just happened to me,
that gave me this happiness
I don’t know. May be it is a feeling
that I am going to make a difference

Is it the thought that I have people,
who loves me and connect with me
Or is it the feeling that I am,
healthy with a great body.

Is it the thought that I have all these
great resources that I can use,
all these mentors and people,
who are with me in my life.

Is it the decision I made just now,
that I will make a difference
Everyday making this world a better place,
than I found it in the morning..

That I can give happiness to people
A happiness only I can give
Like an angel among stars
and that my life matter..

The whole world is looking for it,
For peace and happiness
and I experience it this very moment,
What a wonderful feeling it is..”

–Sijith

“That moment changed my life. When doctor told me that my best friend Jesna is no more, and I am responsible for her death. For quite some time, I just sat there in the hospital bed. I tried to tell myself that this is not true, and Jesna is still alive. How can this happen ? How can I ever imagine I kill my best friend. That sweet girl with always a smile in her. I was totally devastated.”

“And now, I am here with you Jackson. In this train, not sure where I should be going. I don’t feel like I have anyone in this life. My mom, dad, everyone were there for me. But, I killed a person. My hand shakes when I think about it. My heart pains when I remember Jesna’s face.”

“I remember Jesna’s mom and dad coming to see me in the hospital. Oh..How can I remember that day. How can I remember that day. I could see Jesna’s mom crying. I just closed my eyes, as I no longer had the power to see that lady. She was like my own mother, and now I have killed her daughter.”

“I don’t know what is happening to me Jackson. I really don’t know. The world has become black to me. I really don’t know.”

Listening to everything Ashwathi said, Jackson slowly raised his voice – “I am very sorry Ashwathi that this has happened. I join you in your pain. It is quite sad that all this has happened to you. My prayers for Jesna and her family”

“Thanks Jackson. It really feels good to hear those words. What can I do now. I cannot believe that I am a murderer. I want to bring Jesna back to life”

“Yes, you can. You can bring Jesna back to life, and I will tell you how”

“Is it Jackson. How ? I am sure you are joking right ? Jesna is dead Jackson. I killed her. How can I bring her back to life”

“Let me tell you. I am not CEO of Jackson Inc, and my name is not Jackson. I am an Angel. Angel from God, and Jesna – she is still alive”

To be continued..[Intermission]

“It is the time to depart
When our life will go into memories

I wish I could go back in time
To the campus I studied in my life

How wonderful is to be there again
To see my teachers and everyone

Those sands and trees that knows my breath
and classrooms that witnessed my life

This time when it is time to depart
When Our life will go into memories

Into the book of memories
You will be as a peacock feather

All the friendship that I made
Always with me everyday

The ocean of love that you gave me
Touching my heart every time I think of you

We all were there in that life
Living as one in that amazing life

This life it is time to depart
When our life will go into memories

You are the campus I studied
and you will be in my heart always..

”

–Sijith

Mom, the one who stayed awake
The night long I was in pain

Mom, I get every time I look into your eyes
A feeling I get when I realize you’re my mom

Mom, thank-you for being with me
For being my rock when I should have been yours

Mom, I don’t know how can I repay
Everything you have done for me and my life

Mom, you are my mom, I am so proud to claim
For now, and forever..

–Sijith

I can see the full moon,
I can enjoy how wonderful the world is.

Though there are people who can’t
Whose eyes made their world black

Day and night, same black
Every color is just one black

For all those who cannot see this world,
we can be the eyes for them…

–Sijith

Its been a month since my graduation..All my roommates have left the campus. I sat there in my room alone thinking of the wonderful time we had together. Colorful days of campus life. Memories I will always cherish throughout my life.

Jesna – my best friend. She left yesterday evening. She flew to Florida to meet few of her cousins, and then she will leave to her house in Texas. Other roommates have also left. Since I had a project submission pending, I stayed back. Now, sitting here, I think I should have left too, and submit the project in mail !

It is evening, and I decided to visit Prof. Jennifer. She was my Professor in Human Resource department, and she was very kind and supportive to me. Her house is almost 30 miles from campus. I decided to drive. Will also be a change for me. I stood up from my bed, and decided to get ready and leave in an hour.

—–

As I opened my eyes, I was in hospital bed. My head aching badly and was feeling very heavy. Couldn’t move my arms and legs. Everything completely numb. There seems to be stitches and bandages around my hand. I tried to move towards my side, though the pain was high that I kept lying there.

Why am I here. What just happened ? Felt like getting up, but I knew it would be a mere wish that time. No one seem to be around. I just hoped someone would come in so I know what is happening.

I just recollected my past few hours..It has been quite a rush. I remember myself driving in Highway. I was in a holiday mood, and thus my speed was well past 100 miles an hour..Sunday evening. Highway to Professors house was quite deserted and I pushed the accelerator even more.

Speed always thrilled me. Friends used to make fun of me saying, because of my interest in speed – I should be a boy !

Suddenly my car hit something. I was thrown back from the seat. Felt my back being crushed. Car just turned to another side, and I struggled to keep it from sliding. Leg was fully paining, and my lower part was aching too. Then, slowly things started to dim, and then it was all black..

“Ashwathi ! – you awake ? Let me introduce myself. I am Dr. Dave. When you were brought here, you really had tough time breathing. How you feeling now ?”

“I am pretty OK Doctor. Leg is paining. And my hand – can’t move it. What happened. I know I hit something while driving, then it went all black.”

“Oh yes. When you were brought here, you were in a bad condition. There has been internal bleeding and we were seeing how best we can get the bleeding stop. We had a small surgery that we did for you, and you are safe now. In few days, you should be fine”

“Doctor. Can you tell me, whom did I hit. I know it was a car, though not sure of the person and what happened after”

“You take rest. We can talk about it later”

“Please doctor. Tell me. What happened. Who was it that I hit, and what happened to the person”

“Inspector Jackson is waiting outside. He would talk to you in detail”

“Inspector ! Why should he wait for me. Tell me Doctor. What happened. Please tell me ”

“Your car hit another, and there was a girl in that car. She was also brought to this hospital”

“And then..What happened..Please tell me doctor. Please”

” She was also a student of your university. In fact, I was told that she was your friend in the campus”

“What?? My friend in campus. Who is she. What happened to her?”

“Her name is Jesna”

“Jesna – my best friend. I can’t believe. Please let me out. I want to see her. Tell me she is alright. I want to know how is she. Please doctor. Tell me”

“I am afraid. She is no more. We couldn’t save her life..”

[End of Scene 4]

To give an experience that only
I can give…and I know, only those great
memories will remain..

Making my friend laugh, when he didn’t
even want to smile..

Great lives that I can touch,
like an angel living among people..

How wonderful is to live a life bringing
smile in people’s life..

And I know I can live this way,
every single day..

-Sijith

It is graduation day today. There is this great sense of energy in the University. Students are preparing for their grad walk. One of the happiest moment of their life. Professors are excited to see their students walking in the black gown. And not to forget that cool cap !

An energizing moment everywhere. Campus is getting ready for the grand day. The day when the students will walk out of the college as young graduates. A time for celebrating on the greatest achievements of their life.

“Did you see Ashwathi” – “No. I haven’t seen her from morning. She had said she wanted to buy some stuffs”

“Ya. She is like that. Like a magician. Can never say where she is. I hope she don’t miss her graduation walk today”

“Come on Come on – lets get ready. Function starts at 2 PM in the Campus Edge Hall. Heard that we have a special chief guest giving the commencement speech.” “Oh. Who is that ?” “President of United States ” “waw…that is amazing. No wonder there is this much security procedures in the campus. Where in the world is Ashwathi now !”

(20 miles away from the campus)

“This is for everyone here. Today I am graduating from the university. It is a dream come true for me. To graduate from one of the world top university. You are all amazing and have made a big difference in my life. Thanks”

“Why thanks Ashwathi. We should say thanks to you. I was just a university librarian and when my mom met with an accident, and we needed a blood donor – you came forward. If my mom is alive today, it is because of you Ashwathi. The care you gave to our family, thank you so much for the care you gave to our family”

“Oh again – stop it !! By the way, what time is it now” “12.30″ – “what ? my grad walk is at 2 PM. I am getting late !”

“Have a great day. I am sure you will make the world proud of you. Go girl !”

[1.55 PM] University is ready. To begin the event. All the chief guests and special invitees have arrived. In a new minutes, the graduation walk ceremony will begin”

[2 PM} Event is now on. President of University gave the welcome speech. And it is the most awaited speech coming up - Commencement speech by Honorable President of United States of America.

"Friends - today you are graduating and it is indeed a time for celebrating your success. Let me tell you. Your success was when you enrolled in this university. Your success was when you stayed back late nights and days to finish that tough assignment. You success was when you took extra care to give your best to this university with your skills and talents. And today - this graduation certificate you are getting - is just a small recognition of your great efforts and a way for the university to tell you - thanks !"

It is time for the award celebration ceremony. University President is on the stage to give various awards to the students.

"It is time to honor the best student of the year. That student who shined this year with their best performance, and today - I am happy to announce the best student of the year. Let me call - "Miss Ashwathi"

"wawww....Ashwathi. Thats you . Go go. We are so happy. Go and get that award girl !" - erupted all her friends.

She slowly entered the stage, and when she received that award from the honorable President of United States - few drops of tears came off her eyes"

"It is a great feeling to stand in front of you today. As I stand here with excitement, gratefulness and humility, I just want to say one word - Thanks. Thanks to God, to my parents, to my teachers, my friends, everyone. Thanks"

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"That was a great day in my life. Getting the best student award of the year from one of the prestigious universities of the world. Everyone wished me good luck in my life. As I walked to my Professors, they saw in me a person who is going to make a great difference in the world. Ashwathi - you will make the world proud of you."

"And my friends said those same words to me - We are proud to have you as our friend.

Little I know that my life is going to change forever and I will no longer be the same again.."

[End of Scene 3]